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  Heart on Ice

  By: Anberlin Lovell

  Copyright 2013, Anberlin Lovell

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  This book is a work of fiction and any resemblance to persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. The characters are products of the author’s imagination and used fictitiously.

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  Table of Contents

  1

  Hockey in a Dance Studio

  2

  Runaway Bride

  3

  Trying

  Chapter 4

  It just happened

  5

  Celibacy

  6

  Hockey

  7

  Love

  8

  Happiness

  9

  Going to Make this Work

  10

  Russians

  11

  New Coach

  12

  Frustration

  13

  Quitting

  14

  Angel’s and Devil’s

  15

  Alone

  1

  Hockey in a Dance Studio

  “Can’t believe coach is making us take dancing lessons, dude, we’re hockey players not girly skaters.”

  “Figure skaters dude, figure skaters.”

  “Yeah because they’re figure is fine as hell.”

  “Did you guys look up the dance studio we’re going to be at” someone asked.

  “No way dude, did you?”

  “Just to see who I’m working with, you know flattery is my mastery.”

  “She’s hot right?”

  “She’s 48, we’re so screwed.”

  “Wait she has a daughter, Christmas or something” one of the younger guys said looking at the brochure. “She’s a figure skater.”

  “SCOREEE!!!” They all yelled at once, the New York building we walked into looked more like home than a dance studio, a girl on crutches and her foot wrapped up in bandages.

  “You must be the hockey guys. Follow me.” I looked at her face and her blue eyes scanned our faces, she froze when she met mine. Holy fricking shit. I know her. I slept with her. I spent 5 years of my life married to her.

  “Noel?”

  “Nate?”

  “Well this is awkward” Dillon said. He was the best man, at our wedding. “What’d you do to your foot?”

  “Skating accident.”

  “Come on, lead the way hoppy.”

  “If you call me that again I’ll hit you in the head with this thing.” She said holding up the crutch. We went down a hall into this huge room where all the walls were just mirrors.

  “Uhm you all need to be wearing shorts, and no shoes. No gum or anything, you can change in here and push all your bags in that closet, and turn your phones off. My Mom will be here in a few minutes, she’s finishing up a tap class.” Great, her Mom hates me. Dillon looked at me and shrugged,

  “Dude, her Mom hates me.”

  “This is insane; your ex-wife’s Mom is our dance teacher.”

  “Thanks for cutting in, that would have been really awkward.”

  “That what best man’s are for.”

  “Why’d you two split up anyway?” The whole team was intrigued with this, and not going to lie her black hair, blue eyes and slim little muscular body was hot and I was lucky to get to touch it because she didn’t let guys close. But we both had issues,

  “I don’t know, one day things just stopped working.”

  “Well since you two are done can I tap that, she’s hot.” I slapped the guy, who said it upside the head,

  “Dude, she’s my ex-wife, not my ex prostitute.” I said grabbing my shorts from my bag, “Stop talking about her, it’s weird.”

  “She’s hot.”

  “She’s also engaged or reclaimed her virginity.” Dillon said, “The rock on her hand is huge.”

  “You don’t wear a diamond for an innocence ring dumbass.”

  “Shut the hell up!” I shouted, “Talk about something else, please.” We all changed into our shorts and I sat on the floor waiting for Ms. K.

  “Nate Jacobs, how have you been?” she asked surprising me, I guess I zoned out. “Are you going to get up and give your mother-in-law a hug?” I jumped up and she hugged me, this is weird, really, really weird. Dillon was staring at me confused, I shrugged. She pushed back and looked at me, “You haven’t changed a bit.”

  “No ma’am.”

  “And Dillon, you look as sexy as you used to, age hasn’t touched you either.”

  “You look quite darling yourself Ms. K.”

  “Thanks sweetie, now we better get to business, we have a lot of work to do. Everyone, get down on the floor.” She looked around, “Noel!” ugh. Dillon looked at me,

  “Yeah she totally hates you.”

  “Dude this is weird.”

  “It’s only awkward because you’re being awkward.”

  “Yes Mama,” Noel said hobbling into the room,

  “You need to stretch too; again, by the time you get that foot all healed you’ll be as stiff as brick and won’t be able to skate.” She said snatching her crutches, Noel slipped down, well fell down landing on her hands. “Grab the person closest to you to be your partner; we’re doing pair stretching first. Closest to me was Noel, she looked at me and sighed. Everyone else had a partner, I moved to her since she was crippled. She laid down like her Mom instructed and I put my hand on her leg pushing it up straight. It was nearly lying flat on her chest but I knew it’d been a while since she stretched.

  “What’d you really do to your foot?”

  “Skating accident” she mumbled, “Just like I told Dillon. Why haven’t you filed our divorce papers?”

  “Answer my question, in detail, and I answer yours.” I said pushing her leg closer to her chest, I had to move over top of her and my knee was pressed against the inside of her thigh of the leg that was still on the ground.

  “I fell down the stairs, okay? Now quit, before you rip a muscle.” I let up on the leg to back where she wanted it and was stretching, “Tell me about the papers, you filed for divorce after all.”

  “I don’t know; it just doesn’t fell right.”

  “I need you to; I can’t get married if they aren’t filed.”

  “Did you fiancé push you down the stairs?” There had been rumors the guy she was with was abusive, so when I asked I wasn’t being serious but I was right because she got pail and evaded my eyes,

  “No” that was the biggest lie ever. It was time for the other leg and this one was the hurt one and therefore didn’t go as far. She didn’t say anything again until I was being stretched. She pushed me as far as she could, “I swear if you say a word, to anyone, you’ll never get on ice again. Just file the damn papers, ‘kay?” She stretched my ankles and then I had to stretch hers and when we switched to the other ankle, the one that hurt her, her Mom told me to do it whether Noel like it or not. I pressed down on the top of her foot gently and she cringed,

  “Nate that isn’t stretching her, you can’t baby her forever, push down on her foot, she’s your ex-wife, you should be mad at her.” I still couldn’t hurt her, “she cheated on you.” Okay, that made me mad and it hurt me. So I just pushed on her foot more. She had laid down and covered her face and was really just trying to not yell at me or her Mom. I knew that’s why she did that, she always just covered her face when she didn’t want to y
ell. She never raised her voice ever, she’d always talked so quietly and it made people come closer to her to hear her, then you start falling in love with her and it sucks because she either pushes people away or cheats.

  “I didn’t cheat on you dammit! I told you I was pregnant and you assumed I cheated and I didn’t! I never told you the truth because we were already in such a dark place it didn’t much matter because you left!” Honestly, the noise level in the room went from noisy to dead silent. I let up on her ankle but I had to because I was so taken aback. That was the loudest I’d ever heard her, from years of abuse she suffered it left her scared to be too loud. And I’d never even imagined the alternative she didn’t cheat.

  2

  Runaway Bride

  A knock on the wooden doorframe and everyone turned and looked,

  “Is Noel busy?” the guy asked,

  “Yes Toby, I’ll send her out in a bit.” Ms. K said politely, he walked away and she looked at Noel, “Clean your face up and go see him, and you know, try not to lie about anything.” Apparently her Mom didn’t know either so why would this be true? Because Noel didn’t trust guys the way her father abused her she didn’t trust them holding her hand, and it took a lot for her to trust me. Noel used me to stand up and I handed her the crutches, it’d be mean not to and I was obviously really hurting her. Maybe she was just saying it to make me mad. We spent a really long time stretching, “I need to measure your feet so I can get you guys proper shoes and you will all no longer be in the same class, I have a schedule up front for each of you, but you will all have a class together at the same time. You’ll have two classes a week, if the time is inconvenient you are allowed to switch with someone but I’m going to need to know at our next full group.” The guy that was looking for Noel came back,

  “Toby, I sent Noel out already!”

  “She’s gone, she said she was going upstairs and she’d be back in a minute and I waited 5 and she didn’t come back down and I checked the ice and she’s gone.”

  “She’s on crutches Toby, there is only so far a girl can go on crutches in the snow. I don’t even understand how she’d get out.” She said nonbelieving.

  “Went down the fire escape, is she okay? She looked really upset. Did I do something wrong again?”

  “You’re doing something wrong right now; go look for her!” Oh geez. He stared at her, and then left. “I’m sorry you guys, she’s too dramatic for her own good. You guys can just go. Don’t forget to get your schedules on the way out.”

  3

  Trying

  I slipped my skates on and hobbled to the edge, skating wasn’t like walking, as long as I just flew across the ice without putting any sparkle in it, I could do this. No jumps, just skate. I slid across the ice, trying to ignore the pain that my ankle was in. I hated Nate right now and I hated my Mom for making him mad. I didn’t mean to blurt that out, and just saying it brought these tears to my eyes I didn’t know I had. I didn’t realize I had ever been upset about that. I guess I wasn’t just lying to them I was lying to myself because that was easier than crying. I fell on my ass and my ankle was throbbing, I realized I’d tried to jump but failed mercilessly. I heard the skates coming up behind me but didn’t turn. I just kept looking down at the frozen water trying really hard not to cry. They put their hand out to me and when I didn’t look at them, he crouched down and tilted my face up.

  “I didn’t make it official because I didn’t want to, I should have known you didn’t cheat on me, I should have. I’m so sorry I didn’t. I’m so sorry I jumped to conclusions and I’m so sorry that I let your Mom get to me. I’m sorry Noel.”

  “It doesn’t matter Nate, it just doesn’t matter.” He made me look at him again and wiped my eyes, “Do you believe me, really? It’s been 3 years you’ve believed the same lie.” He helped me stand up and took my hands,

  “I believe you, now come here, let me see your ankle.” He picked me up and I had to wrap my legs around his waist, he sat me on the wall and took my skates off my feet. My ankle looked bad, swollen, red and purple and blue and it hurt so much more than words could describe. He ran his fingers over it, and I already had goose bumps but he just gave me a million more and I shivered, all from his hands on my skin. He put his hands on my waist to lift me down and I put my hands on his shoulders, our eyes locked and we were frozen there. What was happening? My heart was skipping and I had butterflies that were making me nauseous. “Noel?” he whispered, I brushed my fingers against his face. I think I moved forward a little and both of our eyes searched each other’s, hesitant on what the other wanted. My lips opened just a little, another little sign he could kiss me. There was this hot fire burning around us. When he kissed me, I felt like a shot of adrenaline had been injected into my veins. My body felt weak and Jell-O like, my arms wrapped around his neck. We just kissed, that’s all, just kissed in this way that I think had only been so hot between us once before. I tangled my fingers in his hair and held onto him. In between my legs I could feel his erection. But he didn’t grind on me or his hands didn’t wander under my shirt. That was why I fell in love and here I am with this beautiful sweet guy wishing we hadn’t spent the last three years apart. I hooked a few fingers in his pocket and pulled him in tighter and wrapped my legs around him. “I didn’t mean for that” he whispered, I smiled, “it’s just been a really long time since, since I’d been with someone.”

  “How long?” I whispered,

  “About three years” He said kissing on my neck, he was so perfect and I loved him.

  “Seriously?” he pushed back and looked at me,

  “Yeah, I just didn’t want to sleep with anyone, I wanted it to be special. And then when I found someone with an emotional connection, this” he looked down, “didn’t happen.” I felt my eyes fill up with tears again and Nate pouted, I pulled him close and hugged him.

  “Why are you crying Noel?”

  “I don’t know, I just, I just” love you. He came off the ice and took his skates off dropping them on the floor picking me up. He went into the locker and sat me down on the bench kneeling in front of me. I ran my fingers down his face again and kissed his lips again, it was softer than the last one but still just as hot. I pulled his shirt off and the kiss got steamier by the second. I was hoping he wouldn’t want to stop; I just wanted to be with him all the way.

  Chapter 4

  It just happened

  Noel tugged my shirt off and I was really uncertain, I didn’t want to just sleep with her, that wasn’t even my intention. I didn’t mean to kiss her and I didn’t mean to get a boner. It just happened and she didn’t seem to mind. I picked her up again and moved her onto my lap on the bench. I didn’t want to do something a freak her out because I was loving the way her mouth felt against mine the feel of her taking my clothes off. I wasn’t going to dominate her because I might push her into something. My dick was throbbing and being enclosed in my jeans with her cute little ass pressed against it, was hurting and wonderful all at the same time. She put her hands on my hands and slid them up her sides,

  “It’s alright” she whispered and let me pull her shirt off. I grabbed onto the breasts that fit perfectly in my hands and moved her again so she was laying. She moaned as I bit onto her neck while she pushed my pants down my legs with her feet and I undid the bra. I was really slowly grinding my hips and dick against her while I kissed and sucked and touched her chest. She was panting and moaning and holding onto me. When her yoga pants came off and the lace thong my boxers didn’t stay on either. I entwined our fingers together and kissed her, “Nate?”

  “I don’t have a condom Noel.”

  “Don’t care; don’t need it, please, Nate.” She couldn’t even talk in whole sentences. I kissed her as I pushed into her slowly and she tightened her legs around me so tight I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to thrust. She was so tight it was like sleeping with her the very first time. She squeezed my hands too and I knew it was hurting her. I didn’t want to hurt her
; I slowly thrust a few times leaving at least 15 seconds in between each one because she was hurting. I teased her with kisses going all the way down to her panty line. I bit her neck right at her jawbone and she trembled and made a noise and I knew I did something right. Running her hands through my hair, she was so wet and willing I just wanted to take my time. I went back to thrusting into her and it was still so tight. I couldn’t take this suspense and she was practically writhing underneath me. I got a steady rhythm and quit kissing her neck to look at her face, she looked so beautiful, her hair fanned out beneath her head, her eyes shut and her lips red and swollen from my bites.

  “Noel open your eyes.” She did and met mine right away, our eyes locked and each thrust got her closer and closer and her eyes would almost drift shut but they didn’t stay shut they opened back to look into mine.

  “I, I-“ she got cut off my her muscles tightening and her moan that when I thrust again became louder, she had to let go of her hands and bite me to muffle the sound, she didn’t stop contracting around me and the spasms and when she met my eyes again sent me over the edge deep inside her.

  5

  Celibacy

  "How you feeling Noel-y" Nate asked, I smiled and kissed him. I was feeling really damn good right now. "I take that as good?"

  "Yeah, I’m always good when I’m with you." I said kissing him after each word, he smiled.

  "Yeah, me too angel."

  "Well for being celibate for three years I'm sure it did" I teased. I pulled my shirt on and he picked me up and I giggled,

  "What about you, little missy?"

  "I don't kiss and tell." I said sticking my tongue out, it was him last, three years ago.

  “Mmm, that’s because you haven’t kissed.” I shrugged and he took my hand with the ring on it, “You want to talk about it?”